WOW Nat
....really did not think things were that bad...it is really sad news and a loss to our community ...its a real shame it has not gone to plan and I hope you can get sorted out with all the issues you have ....like you say maybe as a hobby rather than a business is the way to stabilize your life....am really gutted for you man ....and if there is any way I can give you a hand let me know and I will try to help.